Thursday, January 6, 2011

my mother heart.

most days i feel like a below average mom. there is something about working from home too many hours a day and having 2 little people who expect to be fed, changed, and entertained all day that brings out the worst in me. i lose my patience with them. a lot. but no matter how crazy they make me, there is nothing like singing them lullabies at bedtime to remind me how truly blessed i am. my favorite part of the day is hearing their sweet little voices chime in:
i'm trying to be like Jesus,
i'm following in His ways
i'm trying to love as 
He did in all that i do and say! one another as Jesus loves you
try to show kindness in all that you do!
be gentle and loving in deed and in thought,
for these are the things Jesus taught.
and they go to bed with my kisses on their foreheads and a prayer in my heart to be a better mother, to love them more tomorrow, to be more like Jesus, to love them as He does.


Anonymous said...

beautiful. simply beautiful.

Kim said...

i'm not even a mom yet, but we're "working on it" and this just made me tear up. thanks for your mother's heart, jessica :) it's such an encouragement. i can't wait for moments like that!

{april kennedy} said...

How exciting to read that cute Kim is 'working on it'!!

Jess, working from home is so hard. Sometimes I wonder if going to an office would be easier. But then I had the opportunity and I completely turned it down. My mother heart is home, even when my children are at school. To work from home offers special privileges, but also present challenges that many don't understand. Often I hear people say, "But you are home ALL day." I smile now and say, "yes I am" but you should hear the argument that is going on in my head. It's a juggling act and each day I go to bed also with a prayer in my heart that I will be less stressed and more available for right when my children need me. For we know, they grow too fast.

Thank you for this post....and the reminder!

danielle @ take heart said...

beautiful. a prayer of my heart, too.

Em {Emerging Em} said...

Aww, that's so sweet! :)

Heather :: AFD Jewelry :: said...

This is such a wonderful post, Jess. I pray for the same.

Sarah-Anne said...

wait, your trying to get preggo?! OMG, that totally makes my day! :D

Sarah-Anne said...

what a great post, jessica! i really hope i can be a great mom like you! :)

carlisle clan conversation... said...

You are precious and they see that...they see your heart and your desire to provide the best parts of you. Oh how I struggle with this and desire the same. Praying for you and your doll face nuggets (my weird affectionate nickname for littles)! XOXO

Melissa said...

It's usually the best of mother's that make comments about wanting to be better. They do that because they are "aware". When you are aware of your actions and faults and have a desire to improve, you are most likely to change those things you want to change. I think we are alike that way. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't remind myself to do even better the next day. We only get this one shot (well, 18 years that fly by) and we are so blessed on this journey to be among those who are "aware." xoxo

melissa said...

i could not relate to you more!!!
every night as i rock them and sing to them and tuck them in i think.....thank god i get to try again tomorrow. try to make the moments count. try to make more memories. try to laugh more. tickle more. chase more.
isn't motherhood amazing???
thanks for sharing friend!

beSlightlyAskew said...

Those lullabies at bedtime are my apology to my boys for the day--how I say sorry for losing my patience with them. a lot.

krystina said...

OH SO Cute Jess!!! i wanna squeeze those cheeks! what a sweet lullaby. adore :)

Tahnie said...

Mommyhood is difficult. It is the best thing I've ever done, but like you I am having constant discussions with myself in my head about what things need to be taking priority! I have no idea how so many mommies out there juggle it all. I have serious health issues and am still recovering from a pregnancy I risked my life for, but balance is something I vow to find someday. I tell myself the laundry can wait, in a few years I'll remember precious moments with my little girl and not how many piles of laundry I had to do.


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